Apologies Galore

I'm just going to make a confession, because it needs to be made, whether it is read or not.

Lately, I have been so angry and have been lashing out. I haven't felt this way since high school: bitterness, resentment, hatred, and deep anger.
I realized, after lashing out at someone I loved, that I am so angry at myself, and ultimately at Jesus. I blamed Him for allowing things to happen in my life (I am being deliberately vague), and I wished I had made different choices. I was wrong, and am wrong, to blame Jesus for what happened in the past, because I know that through those situations it was to make His Name known and to give Him, not Lucifer, a pleasurable experience. Now that I see where I have erred, I went to the feet of Jesus and begged forgiveness for my anger, etc.
I am grateful, I chose to be grateful, for the place where the Lord has brought me from and has me in, because I know He has a purpose and a plan for everything, and I am going to be a testimony to the future of what forgiveness, redemption, and love is.

Without Him, where would I be? I don't even want to think about it.